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mahaliemTitle: The Boy Who Only Lived Twice
Pairing(s): Harry/Draco, background Ron/Hermione
Summary: Harry Potter is an Unspeakable. Draco Malfoy is the wizard who shagged him. Adventure! Intrigue! Secret identities, celebrities, spies! It's all right here, folks.
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: All Harry Potter characters herein are the property of J.K. Rowling and Bloomsbury/Scholastic. No copyright infringement is intended.
Warning(s): Fingering, anal sex, a blow-job
Epilogue compliant? Nay.
Word Count: 56,000. Sorry!
Author's Notes: Mahaliem, I’m sorry this didn’t follow any of your prompts. Though they were awesome, I got carried away with another idea. I hope you like it anyway.
2. I got the idea for this from another fic I wrote several years ago. I think the fics are different, but if anyone has read the other, you may see that that one inspired this one.
3. Thanks so so so much to K for the beta, and the lovely mods for their patience.
( The Boy Who Only Lived Twice )
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December 24 2011, 07:38:40 UTC 5 months ago
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December 24 2011, 08:11:05 UTC 5 months ago
What a wonderful, intriguing story! I couldn't stop reading, even though it's 3 am and I'm really supposed to be working. Or sleeping. But this! This was so good, and so involving, and layered, and of course we could tell that Rabbit was Draco, but Harry couldn't, he wouldn't have expected it at ALL, and oh, God, when he told Rabbit, toward the end, that Draco didn't mean anything to him, my heart just went into my throat. And stayed there! But then you made it all better. Whew.
And the sex! So intimate and real and so much more than mere sex, even if Harry didn't want to admit that to himself. Hnnngg.
I could read this one again and again. And probably will.
♥ ♥ ♥
January 15 2012, 05:24:22 UTC 4 months ago
The hardest part about writing this fic was making sure the reader knew what Harry didn't. I'm glad the worked for you--though sorry it prevented you from work!
Thanks so much for your lovely comment!
December 24 2011, 08:59:33 UTC 5 months ago
My heart broke when Harry told Rabbit that Draco meant nothing to him :( but you made it all better, so I'll forgive you.
The sex between Harry and Draco was so...real. And hot. The made up story when they're waiting for the Russians to finish was brilliant! The tea routines were fab; I love the boys fixating on tea! So so many more little bits I could say, but I'd be here forever.
I just could (and will) reread this story over and over again. Fab job.
January 15 2012, 05:27:05 UTC 4 months ago
I'm so glad the magic versions of spy gadgetry worked for you! I really wanted to do more of them, it was so fun, but do you really need an exploding pen when you have a wand? *contemplates*
Thank you so much for your help, your willingness to do so sort of at the eleventh hour, and for all your lovely comments. You rock my socks.
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December 24 2011, 09:11:15 UTC 5 months ago
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December 24 2011, 09:26:37 UTC 5 months ago
"It was actually more upsetting that Harry didn’t know whether Malfoy liked tea or not than it was worrying that he might not actually escape." -- I love that this is his priority (as it should be!) and I love that Harry realizes, before he makes the connection, that he should have taken Malfoy out and given him a chance and tried to really love him.
I really wish Harry would have been punished more for this: “I don't care.” Harry came closer. “About him.” because fuck if I didn't want to castrate him for it. But it wouldn't have made sense, would it? *sigh* Malfoy made it very clear that he was willing to be used so long as he had some semblance of Harry. I still wish he had walked away, if only for a month or so but as a very smart witch once said, "Love makes you do the wacky." And, yes, I am just smashing fandoms together now because it's late and I believe I can get away with those kind of things at the moment.
This ended up semi-coherent, I am proud of me. Though that accomplishment kind of pales in comparison to the brilliance that was this. So I think I'll save my pats on the back for you rather than myself. *pats your face* Continue to write always if you can produce things even half this magnificent, mystery author!
January 15 2012, 05:40:05 UTC 4 months ago
it was going to be Rabbit until Harry knew it wasn't Rabbit
I think Harry is very stubbornly loyal, and I wanted to examine someone who was loyal in that way with their heart, but not their body. I think for some people that can work okay, but for Harry it really doesn't. It really would have been a terrible thing for him if Rabbit had not been Draco; he pretty much would've been torn in two!
before he makes the connection, that he should have taken Malfoy out and given him a chance
This story was supposed to be about prejudices--many different kinds of them, but two of them were a relatively simple prejudice about appearance, vs a far more complex prejudice about previous conceptions. I wanted Harry realizing that Rabbit was Malfoy to be a part of getting over the latter, but for Harry to begin to see glimmers of it before all is revealed. I'm glad that came through.
I still wish he had walked away, if only for a month or so but as a very smart witch once said, "Love makes you do the wacky." And, yes, I am just smashing fandoms together now
Malfoy only managed to walk away for three weeks, alas. But I love BtVS, so smash fandoms any time you like, my dear, and Willow often has wise things to say. :o)
Thanks so much for this wonderful comment. It made me happy that you liked it, though I'm sorry that your brain got goo'ed.
December 24 2011, 10:49:03 UTC 5 months ago
Have read twice so far. The first time I was taking everything all in: Harry was a right little fucker at places; yet I can't bring myself to hate him, for the emotional journey he went through.
The second time I cried like a baby; my tears wouldn't stop falling down. It broke my heart: this Draco, and their sex scenes, I haven't read sex as well-written in years. No fancy words, but plain rawness - makes you feeling so wretched and happy at the same time. His love for Harry really shone through from the way he gave himself to Harry so completely and so freely. There was nothing dirty (except perhaps for the sex they were having) or awkward about it. It's rare to read sex scenes in which the physical side blends so perfectly with emotions.
A real gem! Mystery write, a huge huge well-done. And please keep writing. :-)
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December 24 2011, 11:51:14 UTC 5 months ago
You did take me through an emotional rollercoaster with this fic but you patched it all up in the end. I was glad that there was a happily ever after for the two of them. :)
January 15 2012, 05:53:11 UTC 4 months ago
I think Harry definitely lied about not caring about Malfoy, but it was a douchey thing he said! I'm really glad the resolution worked out for you. Thank you so much!
December 24 2011, 13:19:29 UTC 5 months ago
Not sure if I am correct about the mystery writer, but I was reading 1/4 way though and thought to myself, hum, the writing style and theme sounded really familiar. Perhaps it's just like another fic (one of my favourite that I read once every few weeks and never get tired of) that I have just reread again in the half an hour ago. Let's go and read the author's notes! Oh look, is that not another hint. :)
January 15 2012, 05:55:50 UTC 4 months ago
I'd be interested to know what other fic you were thinking of, because if it's not by me, I'd love to read it! The fic I referred to is something I wrote in Batman fandom, called Go Your Own Way.
Thanks so much for your lovely comment.
December 24 2011, 14:13:47 UTC 5 months ago
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December 24 2011, 16:48:33 UTC 5 months ago
This has got to be the best thing I have read in a long, long time. Months, if not years, at the very least. This piece of writing is absolutely brilliant- I just. Well. Speechless. And I just sort of sat there, reading this with my face drawn out and pale, tears streaking down my face. You are someone I could marry. Happily.
Thank you so much for writing this, and for the love of Jesus, either just marry me, or keep writing.
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December 28 2011, 00:41:18 UTC 5 months ago Edited: December 28 2011, 00:53:40 UTC
----SPOILER ALERT-----
So, yes, I am back. Because I just had to at least make it clear that I did mean what I said - this story has been hunting me for the last couple of days and I just couldn't stop thinking about it. So I am here to lay down my compliments and maybe ramble a little more, because I doubt I will be able to make a much more coherent comment, anyway. But let me try.
The first amazing thing about this story is, of course, the writing: beautiful, delicate at some points, and then so thrilling and able to take the reader's breath away during the action scenes. And the sex scenes are SO hot - I just love how you play the physical aspects entangled with the psychology of the relationship - you build up the tension between them and then just make us melt with the next scene where things actually happen. Bruno and Marieta impersonation, and then the meeting between Draco and Harry were maybe one of the most beautiful and sexy scenes I've ever read.
And then I think that that's one of the things that got me really hooked here: how can you do everything so well? Their characterizations are perfect, the way we get to know them, learn what time has meant to them, understand their expectations, frustration and motives. The plot - what is happening, it is really well done, I love the scenes of Harry seducing the suspects, I actually really enjoyed your side chars, they give more consistency to the story. Then, their relationships, how you so carefully built the admiration, first, and then the way Harry fell in love with Rabbit, and I must say that there were moments that you managed to make me wonder if it wasn't someone else. And the most amazing part is that, of course I really really wanted him to be Draco, but it if it wasn't - I had also already fell in love with him as well, and it didn't matter.
And in the other hand, it felt amazing the way that Harry fell in love with Draco and just wouldn't admit it because - he had to be faithful to Rabbit. When I first finished reading this fic for the first time (I've read it at least three times now), I felt bad for Draco. But then I realized that actually it was his decision - and Rabbit *was* him, so he knew Harry really loved him. He decided he wanted to Harry to realize it, but he knew it, and that was messed up and I just loved it.
I think that one of my favourite scenes is the one where Rabbit drives Blackbird to the broom shop and Harry runs away flying and then Rabbit is amazed... "I’d forgotten."
Oh my. I just went back to re-read this scene and I could actually feel the way he was feeling... like watching someone you really love doing something so amazing... *sighs* Oh my. You said the length of the fic was a warning and I just wanted it to keep going and going and going. I wish I was there to watch their first conversation after Harry found out - the first time they ever talked about it. But then again, your timing is just perfect and I love that you decided to actually give us another glimpse of their evolving relationships, talking about how they felt now that they knew for a while.
I guess I should stop here. I am looking forward to find out who you are, so I can go and ready everything you have written. Thank you again for writing this.
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December 24 2011, 22:08:02 UTC 5 months ago
TYVM!
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January 15 2012, 06:23:34 UTC 4 months ago
I'm glad the transitions between timelines worked for you. I tend to get lost as a reader when timelines jump, so I always try to make it very, very clear, and sometimes I fear I'm a bit like a sledgehammer about it. Thanks for your excellent feedback; I'm really glad you liked this.
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December 25 2011, 03:36:00 UTC 5 months ago
Loved loved loved this fic!
January 15 2012, 06:25:18 UTC 4 months ago
December 25 2011, 06:41:58 UTC 5 months ago
You wrote Draco perfectly. I adore that you illustrated how he's wired oh so differently from Harry, but he's also smart, quick, and relentless and you made him so heartbreakingly human and deeply vulnerable. (Also - you had him do impersonations! Oh, and the spell he uses to make his hair look thicker! Wonderful!)
Can I say that I'm a real sucker for polyjuice and not knowing real identities and such? Love, love, love the fact that you convincingly had Harry fall for both Rabbit and, eventually, Draco.
The sex scenes were amazing. You wrote them incredibly well.
The plot (Yay!) was great and involving and the OCs were fabulous.
I must say that what I especially liked was how you kept us firmly in the Harry Potter universe and how realistically Harry and Draco were written. Their friends were around, they talked about their shared history, there were mentions of Remus, Teddy, Diggory, all of which made the story seem so rich and full.
I wish I was better at commenting so that I could more fully expound on how much I truly enjoyed this story. Thank you so very, very much for this fantastic gift.
January 15 2012, 06:35:15 UTC 4 months ago
Although I don't think we have previously interacted, I have seen you about fandom. I know that you have not had an easy time of it recently, and wanted to say how lovely you are for leaving this comment, with all that is going on. I hope you don't mind if I friend you, and offer you all my virtual hugs.
♥
December 25 2011, 08:29:48 UTC 5 months ago
Thank you! That was the best fic I have read in a LONG time. (like years)
- please excuse my incoherence, it's your fault after all.
January 15 2012, 06:36:05 UTC 4 months ago
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