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04 December 2008 @ 12:00 am
Happy H/D Holidays, sherant!  
Author: bryoneybrynn
Recipient: sherant
Title: So Hard a Master
Pairing(s): Harry/Draco; also Harry/Ginny, Draco/Astoria, very minor mentions of Ron/Hermione
Summary: When it comes to love, not all dreams can come true. But how do you know which dreams to let go of and which ones to hold on to as tight as you can?
Rating: PG-13
Betas: The most amazing beta team of T, U, and W - I owe you big; and also A for her input and support
Disclaimer: All Harry Potter characters herein are the property of J.K. Rowling and Bloomsbury/Scholastic. No copyright infringement is intended; all characters engaged in sexual situations are above the age of 18.
Warning(s): Angst, swearing, minor violence, miniscule bit of explicit het
Epilogue compliant? Umm... epilogue-ambiguous?
Word Count: 24,500
Author's Notes: Sherant gave me a lovely list of prompts and one crucial that almost killed me (see if you can guess which one it is). Here are the ones I attempted to include in the fic: something that explores their canonical hate-obsession with each other and not the physical side - to the end that maybe they never actually do get together, or maybe they never get to/want to take it further than a touch or a kiss, at most; anger, frustration, angstyness, regret, hope; a secret uneasy truce, like when they have to be stuck together they actually can talk a bit and enjoy the company - but would likely never admit it; annual Yule Ball; a fight in the snow; winter coats in Diagon or London.

Sherant – I’m not sure how successful I was at capturing the canonical relationship and I think it’s a bit different than what you had in mind, but I hope you like it. It was a pleasure to write for you. And HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

( So Hard a Master )
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Bryoneybryoneybrynn on January 8th, 2009 04:23 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! I'm thrilled that the fic rendered you speechless - that's quite a compliment. Also, this was a great first comment to receive as I was very nervous about what people would think of this fic. So thanks. :)
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Bryoneybryoneybrynn on January 8th, 2009 04:24 pm (UTC)
I hope you mean "completely gutted me" in a good way? Is it wrong that I'm please it pulled you in enough to do so?

Thanks so much for reading and the lovely comment. :)
tflktflk on December 4th, 2008 07:40 am (UTC)
OMG... that was amazing...

I really can't think of the right words here, but I just couldn't read and not comment. Really, really great and sad and heart-breaking and wonderful--all at the same time. Just wow.
Bryoneybryoneybrynn on January 8th, 2009 04:25 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much. I'm really glad you commented, even if you thought you couldn't get the words right. However, they sound great to me - I'm thrilled you liked it. :)
coolseptember: potter > lifecool_september on December 4th, 2008 08:56 am (UTC)
God, I loved this but I HATED the ending, not because of the writing (which was beautiful & haunting) but because I am such a sap and I can't stomach endings like that and...guh. I don't know what to say.

I know this was from the prompt (which I think you captured perfectly) but I wouldn't be unhappy with a sequel! Maybe? Possibly? :/

Anyway. Thank you for this. Definitely one of my favorites so far.
coolseptember: capslock fangirlcool_september on December 4th, 2008 09:06 am (UTC)
I realized my above comment sounded harsh & I do apologize. I don't take anything-but-happy endings very well, but I really did love this. :]
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madsy73madsy73 on December 4th, 2008 12:00 pm (UTC)
Brilliant ! and the ending despite being so heart breaking somehow just fit in and made sense....
Bryoneybryoneybrynn on January 8th, 2009 04:28 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much. I thought I'd get more ass-kicking for the ending so I'm thrilled to hear that it worked for you. Thanks so much for reading and commenting! :)
goddessrissgoddessriss on December 4th, 2008 01:13 pm (UTC)
Wonderful. I loved how they managed to rub along together while in the cupboard and how it ended. Poor Harry - it took so long for him to get to that point, only for Draco to have moved on... Great stuff.
Bryoneybryoneybrynn on January 8th, 2009 04:29 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! I had a lot of fun writing the scenes in the cupboard. It took me a while to figure out what to do with them once they got out though. I'm really glad you enjoyed the story. Thanks for reading and commenting!
SFirresistableplx on December 4th, 2008 01:58 pm (UTC)
to the end that maybe they never actually do get together,

you succeeded alright! :<

even you aimed for ambigous ending, im really sad with how it turned out :<<<
SFirresistableplx on December 4th, 2008 01:59 pm (UTC)
(the fic writing was great ...im just more biased toward happy endings this season huhuhu)
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OkyDokyokydoky on December 4th, 2008 04:18 pm (UTC)
That was gorgeous. In my head, they get together after (obviously) but you broke my heart, poor Harry :( Lovely.
Bryoneybryoneybrynn on January 8th, 2009 04:31 pm (UTC)
Well of course they get together after (obviously). It's Harry and Draco, after all!

Thanks for reading, my dear - I'm so glad you liked it! *hugs*
anathema91anathema91 on December 4th, 2008 05:59 pm (UTC)
Ghu. Just. Guh.

Absolutely and utterly brilliant. This was so perfect. I loved every bit of it, including (and maybe especially) the ending.

Thank you for sharing something so beautiful with us. ♥
Bryoneybryoneybrynn on January 8th, 2009 04:32 pm (UTC)
Thank you for this lovely comment. It brought a huge smile to my face. I had been very nervous about how the fic would be received - I really struggled with it - so the compliments mean a lot. :)
rickey_a: H/D Kissrickey_a on December 4th, 2008 07:32 pm (UTC)
This was an enjoyable read. The conversations and gradual change of Harry's view of Draco were really well done. I also liked the hospital scenes and think Draco was faking his sleep. I'm a bit unsatisfied with the Tomorrow is another day - Gone with the Wind ending, but that's the shipper in me.
Bryoneybryoneybrynn on January 8th, 2009 04:34 pm (UTC)
Draco was totally faking his sleep! But for good reason. He was just trying to protect his poor heart. But yeah, originally the ending just cut off with Draco Apparating and Harry walking out of the alley. But in my head I knew Harry wasn't giving up, but that he felt defeated in that moment. I guess the "tomorrow" ending was to try and inject that hope, so readers would know it wasn't just over without losing Harry's dejection in that moment. *shrugs* TBH, this fic kicked my ass from start to finish! lol

Thanks for reading and commenting!
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Bryoneybryoneybrynn on January 8th, 2009 04:35 pm (UTC)
It's the end of this part of the story. There might be a sequel someday but in my head, Draco completely comes back. I'm glad you enjoyed it - thanks so much for reading and commenting!
A characteristic Spiralherra_humpuuki on December 4th, 2008 09:56 pm (UTC)
That was bloody damn amazing. Just my luck that my computer started playing Radiohead's Videotape when I read the end, resulting in me ending up crying. Wow, I think one of the reasons I liked this so much was that there was no sex, because it so often feels like a dull convention when reading fanfiction nowadays. ( This is not to say that it isn't good, though, if done well.) That's far from being the most important one, though, the story's very subtle, very stylish and so...I dunno, deep? Maybe. Also loved the ending, it's seriously good not to give the readers what they're hoping for, I think, which is mostly a happy ending. I know I hope for that, and it's maybe thanks to the ending that this one felt so real, because - to end with a horrible cliché - life doesn't necessarily end happily either. Anyway, thank you so much for this.
Bryoneybryoneybrynn on January 8th, 2009 04:37 pm (UTC)
What a lovely comment - thank you so much! This story was a bit of a struggle for me, quite different from my usual, so I'm thrilled to know it worked for you. And, though wrong of me, it's very flattering to know it made you cry. Yay for tears! lol

Thank you so much for reading and commenting.
nolagalnolagal on December 4th, 2008 10:02 pm (UTC)
Wonderful story, the ending was gut wrenching and I just want to scream and smoosh them together but it worked so well. The emotions throughout this were fantastic and the time in the cupboard getting to know each other was great. Beautiful work!
Bryoneybryoneybrynn on January 8th, 2009 04:38 pm (UTC)
Thanks, darling! I'm glad you braved it. I think much of my f-list ran screaming when they saw PG-13/no sex AND ambiguous ending AND angst! lol *pets her sweet soft flist* I'm really glad you liked it - it put me through the wringer so it's really great to hear the end result was okay.

Thanks for reading and commenting my dear. And most excellent icon - that Aurora!!

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Bryoneybryoneybrynn on January 8th, 2009 04:39 pm (UTC)
Thank you for this lovely comment. I'm glad the ending worked for you - I kind of expected to be run out of town with pitchforks over it, so it's been great getting positive feedback! ;) Thanks so much for reading and commenting!
sherant on December 4th, 2008 11:44 pm (UTC)
Oh, how amazing a coincidence is it that I remember to check in on this community today and find that a gift for me has been posted?!

First let me say that I haven't read this no-doubt-amazing fic yet as there was thankfully-non-fatal accident on Thanksgiving that has turned the lives of me and my family completely upside-down. BUT! I'm printing it out while I write this and am eagerly looking forward to reading it the next chance I have to sit down for a while. Pleasant surprises like this have taken on an even more special meaning in the past week, so I am very grateful and thankful just to have received such a gift. :)

From scanning the above comments it sounds like it's a good thing the tissues are handy -but that's a good thing as I'm a sucker for those kind of things (in fiction!!). ;)

Again, VERY much looking forward to reading this, thank you again -and I'll leave a proper comment once I've had a chance to savor it!
Bryoneybryoneybrynn on January 8th, 2009 04:43 pm (UTC)
Hey sherant. I had a lot of fun writing this fic for you. It was a real challenge - I wanted to smush them together so many times!! I adore your artwork and really wanted to give you a gift that didn't suck. I'm still sort of lukewarm on the final product but hopefully you'll find things in it to amuse you.

I'm so sorry to hear about the accident. I hope you and your family are doing better and that everyone is on the road to recovery.